Today my heart is full.
That's a weird way to start a blog post I know, but everything inside of me today has been good and happy. I woke up this morning after getting very little sleep and then being woken by loud thunder and not being able to fall back asleep. Sounds like a FANTASTIC way to start out your day right, yeah not really.
Besides that rough start I decided to put the book I was currently reading on hold because last Sunday I got my copy of If You Feel Too Much by Jamie Tworkowski. Now if you have no idea who that is or what that book is then hold on and I'll explain. Jamie is the founder of the organization To Write Love On Her Arms which represents this:
To Write Love On Her Arms is a non profit movement dedicated to
spreading hope and finding help for those suffering with depression,
addiction, self-injury, suicide, eating disorders, anxiety, and other
mental health issues. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and
invest directly into treatment and recovery.
This organization has been with my for almost seven years now. I bought my first shirt from them at Warped Tour 2008 when I was thirteen years old. Since then I have learned the message, I have taken part in writing my own Fears vs Dreams, my reasons for why I can't be replaced, and why no one else can play my part. I have grown to love this organization like no other organization I have found. Their values and beliefs speak true to mine, as a hopeful future counselor.
Now back to the book. It's a small book, only 182 pages including Author's Note and About The Author, but even being that small normally I have to stop and put it down to do other things and would take at least two days to finish it. No, not this one. I finished If You Feel Too Much in less than twelve hours. It would have been less time but I worked out and made lunch and did dishes and other stuff around the apartment.
This book filled me with a joy and passion that I have felt before but not recently. Recently there have been times when I haven't even been sure if I should be going into counseling, if that is my true calling. This book pulled me back on track and made me realize that helping other people is what I want to do. It made me remember why I wanted to be a counselor in the first place.
Another thing it made me do? It made me look into TWLOHA's internship. Now, I don't have any money and it is unpaid so that was my big issue. So, I have started a GoFundMe campaign and I hope to be able to raise the money that I need to raise for this dream and journey. I will not be even applying until the internship for the summer 2017 has opened so I have time to raise this money. Please if anyone can help even a donation of $5 or even $1 would be amazing and I would love everyone forever for it.
Here is the link the the campaign: Click here to donate
Thank you very much for any support I have out there.
Thursday, June 4, 2015
Thursday, May 28, 2015
May 28, 2015;
So there have been a couple times where I was going to fill everyone in on what has been going on with me, but I never think of it when I get home from work that or I am just completely exhausted. Now though I don't have to work for another hour and a half almost so I will type it ll up right now!
About two weeks ago, not quite but it will be two weeks on Saturday, I moved into my new apartment. I don't even know if I mentioned on here that I was going to have to find a new place to live or not, but back at the beginning of April I found out that my lease wasn't going to be renewed where I was living. That required me to find somewhere else to go and it honestly just lead me to the other side of town. I am paying a little bit more rent but my kitty is able to live here with me as well and I am glad to be living alone honestly. I wasn't too sure how I was going to feel about living alone but it is actually really nice and I am in a quiet area of town and don't feel unsafe or anything.
Lately I have been working A LOT! I was at about 30 hours last week, then this week with two people gone at least four of the five days I am working almost 40 hours which is insane to me. I have not worked that many hours in a week since I worked at Hardees back in 2013. I mean the paycheck is going to be BEAUTIFUL, but it is a lot of working which I am not used to. I am even doing split shifts both today and tomorrow.
Also, Brendan has come to visit me this week, he is sadly leaving tomorrow, but that is okay. It has been nice to see him even though I have been working every single night that he has been here and only get to spend mornings with him.
Another thing since I last wrote. I have now bought tickets to my sixth and seventh shows of the year and I also went to my fourth show on the 23rd. I bought tickets to see William Beckett and Aaron Gillespie for July 10, and then just today I bought tickets to see Taking Back Sunday and Greek Fire on August 7. I am super excited about the both of those shows.
Anyway, I went to Pointfest with Hannah on the 23rd of this month. That was a really great time. We people watched a lot of the day and then we had pretty decent seats when we went and watched the main bands. I had to stay the night with her that night because it was so late when we got out. It was awesome though even though we both got super sunburnt while we were there, mine is finally not hurting which is great.
I don't really know of much else that has happened, but I am going to try to do better about keeping up to date on stuff going on.
"If you're not willing to risk it all then you don't want it enough." - Anonymous
About two weeks ago, not quite but it will be two weeks on Saturday, I moved into my new apartment. I don't even know if I mentioned on here that I was going to have to find a new place to live or not, but back at the beginning of April I found out that my lease wasn't going to be renewed where I was living. That required me to find somewhere else to go and it honestly just lead me to the other side of town. I am paying a little bit more rent but my kitty is able to live here with me as well and I am glad to be living alone honestly. I wasn't too sure how I was going to feel about living alone but it is actually really nice and I am in a quiet area of town and don't feel unsafe or anything.
Lately I have been working A LOT! I was at about 30 hours last week, then this week with two people gone at least four of the five days I am working almost 40 hours which is insane to me. I have not worked that many hours in a week since I worked at Hardees back in 2013. I mean the paycheck is going to be BEAUTIFUL, but it is a lot of working which I am not used to. I am even doing split shifts both today and tomorrow.
Also, Brendan has come to visit me this week, he is sadly leaving tomorrow, but that is okay. It has been nice to see him even though I have been working every single night that he has been here and only get to spend mornings with him.
Another thing since I last wrote. I have now bought tickets to my sixth and seventh shows of the year and I also went to my fourth show on the 23rd. I bought tickets to see William Beckett and Aaron Gillespie for July 10, and then just today I bought tickets to see Taking Back Sunday and Greek Fire on August 7. I am super excited about the both of those shows.
Anyway, I went to Pointfest with Hannah on the 23rd of this month. That was a really great time. We people watched a lot of the day and then we had pretty decent seats when we went and watched the main bands. I had to stay the night with her that night because it was so late when we got out. It was awesome though even though we both got super sunburnt while we were there, mine is finally not hurting which is great.
I don't really know of much else that has happened, but I am going to try to do better about keeping up to date on stuff going on.
"If you're not willing to risk it all then you don't want it enough." - Anonymous
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015;
It has been one day short of a month since the last time that I have posted. That is because I have just been really really busy with the last month of school. I do have to say something now though... IT IS SUMMER NOW! I finished my last final today at about two today so that was perfect. I am just so glad to be able to just relax a little now.
Now I just have to think about this summer and work. Brendan is graduating on Saturday and I don't know how often now I am going to be able to see him now, but we will work it out. We spent time watching a The Imitation Game tonight. It was a really good movie and I'm glad that we decided to pick that movie to watch tonight.
I don't really know what else I have done lately because really all that I ever do and have done in the last month is go to school and go to work. It is seriously just a been a constant thing for the last month or more. I have been doing also is watching Parks and Recreation... A LOT!
Anyway, I have nothing else to say because I'm lame. Hopefully my next post will be better...
"Kindness is a language that the deaf can hear and the blind can see." - Mark Twain
Now I just have to think about this summer and work. Brendan is graduating on Saturday and I don't know how often now I am going to be able to see him now, but we will work it out. We spent time watching a The Imitation Game tonight. It was a really good movie and I'm glad that we decided to pick that movie to watch tonight.
I don't really know what else I have done lately because really all that I ever do and have done in the last month is go to school and go to work. It is seriously just a been a constant thing for the last month or more. I have been doing also is watching Parks and Recreation... A LOT!
Anyway, I have nothing else to say because I'm lame. Hopefully my next post will be better...
"Kindness is a language that the deaf can hear and the blind can see." - Mark Twain
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
April 7, 2015;
I'm going to start this off by saying that right now stress is still pretty high for me. A few more things have been coming up and I am just starting to look at a few different options that I don't know if I will be able to do or not.
The biggest one is the idea of where I am going to live next year. I have been stressing over who am going to live with and it still just is not yielding any sort of response. So lately I have been thinking about something completely different. I am thinking about moving back into the apartment where I lived when I was still married because I could be alone and I could have my cats. The problem with that idea though is the fact that the apartments themselves really aren't that great, but honestly it might be better than not having anywhere to go at all. I also canceled two of my subscription boxes because I was thinking that I will need a little bit of extra money if I am going to move there, plus I really do need the extra money even if I don't move and maybe I will subscribe again in the future when I have more money.
So, that is something that I am having to think about right now. Also the end of the semester is coming up and so everything school wise is starting to become a bigger mess. I know that I will make it through all of it and come out in a good place at the end, but still its a mess.
Really there isn't much else going on right now with anything and I didn't really have anything else to talk about so I guess that this is all I have to put today. Quote time!
"What screws us up most in life is the picture in our head of how its supposed to be." - Anonymous
The biggest one is the idea of where I am going to live next year. I have been stressing over who am going to live with and it still just is not yielding any sort of response. So lately I have been thinking about something completely different. I am thinking about moving back into the apartment where I lived when I was still married because I could be alone and I could have my cats. The problem with that idea though is the fact that the apartments themselves really aren't that great, but honestly it might be better than not having anywhere to go at all. I also canceled two of my subscription boxes because I was thinking that I will need a little bit of extra money if I am going to move there, plus I really do need the extra money even if I don't move and maybe I will subscribe again in the future when I have more money.
So, that is something that I am having to think about right now. Also the end of the semester is coming up and so everything school wise is starting to become a bigger mess. I know that I will make it through all of it and come out in a good place at the end, but still its a mess.
Really there isn't much else going on right now with anything and I didn't really have anything else to talk about so I guess that this is all I have to put today. Quote time!
"What screws us up most in life is the picture in our head of how its supposed to be." - Anonymous
Saturday, March 28, 2015
March 28, 2015;
Once again almost a month has gone by since I last posted and I don't know what I have done because I am really bad about that.
The things I can think about right now are the fact that all I have been doing still is working because my boss had her baby a little over a week ago so I am back to working about 28-29 hours a week and it is really starting to wear on me, but I still have like four or five weeks until she even gets back. I am also starting to stress out about school stuff because there are a lot of things that I need to get done in the next few weeks and it is stressing me out.
I also am in need of a new roommate because mine is moving out at the end of the school year and I currently have absolutely no idea who is going to live there and that is probably stressing me out the most along with working so much.
Honestly I don't even know what to talk about in this post. All I can think of doing lately has been I received my two new subscription boxes (Try The World and Yogi Surprise) and so far I love them. I am planning on making dinner next Wednesday with some of the things that came in the Try The World box and Brendan and I will have a nice Moroccan dinner! And also Brendan and I went to Pizza Hut last night because I just wanted pizza and I needed to go to Walmart and get some thing like coolant and power steering fluid because my car hates everything!
Other than those things all I know is that Cartel concert is two weeks from today and that is super exciting for me, I am being inducted into Psi Chi coming the 13th of this month which is the National Honor Society for Psychology, and I don't know anything else!
"Raise your voice, not your words. It is rain that grows flowers, not thunder." - Rumi
The things I can think about right now are the fact that all I have been doing still is working because my boss had her baby a little over a week ago so I am back to working about 28-29 hours a week and it is really starting to wear on me, but I still have like four or five weeks until she even gets back. I am also starting to stress out about school stuff because there are a lot of things that I need to get done in the next few weeks and it is stressing me out.
I also am in need of a new roommate because mine is moving out at the end of the school year and I currently have absolutely no idea who is going to live there and that is probably stressing me out the most along with working so much.
Honestly I don't even know what to talk about in this post. All I can think of doing lately has been I received my two new subscription boxes (Try The World and Yogi Surprise) and so far I love them. I am planning on making dinner next Wednesday with some of the things that came in the Try The World box and Brendan and I will have a nice Moroccan dinner! And also Brendan and I went to Pizza Hut last night because I just wanted pizza and I needed to go to Walmart and get some thing like coolant and power steering fluid because my car hates everything!
Other than those things all I know is that Cartel concert is two weeks from today and that is super exciting for me, I am being inducted into Psi Chi coming the 13th of this month which is the National Honor Society for Psychology, and I don't know anything else!
"Raise your voice, not your words. It is rain that grows flowers, not thunder." - Rumi
Thursday, March 5, 2015
March 5, 2015;
Wow, I am the absolute worst blogger ever! I haven't been on here in almost two months. I have been so busy though and every single time I think about getting on to type a post I realize something else that I have to do that is of more importance. I mean really who reads this blog anyway other than it just being a personal recap of my life. No one really cares. Anyway, for my own pleasure here are things I haven't spoken about because I haven't been here:
I am pretty sure that is about all I have to talk about. So, as usual... Quote time.
"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist." - Oscar Wilde
- Brendan and I had our one year anniversary on January 31!
- We went to The Bleu and had an amazing dinner and it was just a fabulous night.
- Also he loved the scrapbook that I made for him and he got me a gorgeous necklace which I absolutely love as well.
- We spent Valentines Day being awesome
- Lunch at Hardees
- Lots of Guild Wars 2, which was my gift to him. I bought it myself so I could play with him, and now I love it all on my own.
- Made homemade pizza for dinner and I made a heart on top of it out of oregano... It was fantastic.
- I have worked A LOT! I have been working about 27-29 hours a week for the last oh about two months or so and that's a little bit insane. I have been working at a store that isn't mine every single Friday for that amount of time, tomorrow will be my last day having to work there though.
- I bought tickets to two more concerts... Cartel and Pointfest. Oh! I also won a VIP pass to Warped Tour as well this summer. I wasn't planning on going but now I am because it is free!
- I also went to another concert! Big surprise right? It was Motion City Soundtrack with William Beckett and Brick + Mortor. I went with Hannah and it was an awesome night, we had Steak 'N Shake after the concert. Here are some pictures before I move on, sorry that they kind of suck, I have shaky hands.
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| Motion City Soundtrack |
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| William Beckett ♥ |
- I signed up for two more monthly subscription boxes. One is another food box and the other is a yoga box. I haven't received the first one of each yet but I'm excited to do so! I am still getting Love With Food every month too which is super exciting because I really love it.
- Speaking of yoga, I bought a yoga mat! It came yesterday so I started using it. I am really hoping to start doing yoga as a regular thing. I think it'll be good for me to do!
- Brendan and I went to IHOP at 9:30 last night, which was fun. We haven't done a late IHOP run in a while.
I am pretty sure that is about all I have to talk about. So, as usual... Quote time.
"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist." - Oscar Wilde
Friday, January 16, 2015
January 16, 2015;
Well this year isn't starting out like last year did with posting all the time but that's okay, I still am going to make and effort to do so for this year and hopefully for years to come even though I won't be posting all the time it is still a way to remember stuff that was done.
Anyway, school started back Monday so with it now being Friday that means that already we have a week of the spring semester under our belts which I guess is kind of exciting. Brendan came back last Saturday and then on Sunday we went to see the last movie in the Hobbit movies which was really exciting and then for dinner we went to Olive Garden which was delicious! (Even though I did just have a brain fart because I had to ask where we even went and what day it was on).
Anyway other than that everything has just been class and work even though it feels like I haven't really even worked at all though I don't know why. Last night at work was a struggle though becaue we were really busy because they had dinner in the field house rather than in the cafeteria at school so lots of the students came down to Subway for dinner instead. I still got out of there on time but it just was a really long night. Also yesterday I got my third Love With Food box which is always and excitement because you never know what you are going to get in them. I even had the Kettle Cooked Apples out of it and black tea this morning and carried my tea all the way to class because I had not finished it and I didn't want to waste it since it was good!
Tomorrow Brendan and I are going to go have dinner and also buy him some new shoes that aren't tennis shoes so that he has shoes for when we go on our anniversary date that look nicer. Iam realy excited. It seems kind of crazy that we have been together for a year come fifteen days from now! I can't wait to give him his present and also see what he got for me!
Welp, I have nothing else to say so I guess that it is quote time.
"I like people with depth, I like people with emotion, I like people with a strong mind, an interesting mind, a twisted mind, and also people that can make me smile." - Abbey Lee Kershaw
Anyway, school started back Monday so with it now being Friday that means that already we have a week of the spring semester under our belts which I guess is kind of exciting. Brendan came back last Saturday and then on Sunday we went to see the last movie in the Hobbit movies which was really exciting and then for dinner we went to Olive Garden which was delicious! (Even though I did just have a brain fart because I had to ask where we even went and what day it was on).
Anyway other than that everything has just been class and work even though it feels like I haven't really even worked at all though I don't know why. Last night at work was a struggle though becaue we were really busy because they had dinner in the field house rather than in the cafeteria at school so lots of the students came down to Subway for dinner instead. I still got out of there on time but it just was a really long night. Also yesterday I got my third Love With Food box which is always and excitement because you never know what you are going to get in them. I even had the Kettle Cooked Apples out of it and black tea this morning and carried my tea all the way to class because I had not finished it and I didn't want to waste it since it was good!
Tomorrow Brendan and I are going to go have dinner and also buy him some new shoes that aren't tennis shoes so that he has shoes for when we go on our anniversary date that look nicer. Iam realy excited. It seems kind of crazy that we have been together for a year come fifteen days from now! I can't wait to give him his present and also see what he got for me!
Welp, I have nothing else to say so I guess that it is quote time.
"I like people with depth, I like people with emotion, I like people with a strong mind, an interesting mind, a twisted mind, and also people that can make me smile." - Abbey Lee Kershaw
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