December 15, 2014;

I am sorry I have been neglecting you blog, I'm horrible.  Anyway, it has been almost a month since I last wrote and because of that I am just going to talk about the few things that I can think of. 

On the ninth of December I spent some time with Hannah.  We were going to hang out earlier but she didn't wake up until later.  It wasn't that much of a deal though because I honestly had nothing to do that day.  It was nice to spend time with her before school ended.  We even watched Alice in Wonderland after we got home. 

Anyway, after that I don't think there was much that I can think of that happened other than Brendan and I exchanged gifts between each of us.  It was really cute he got me the Doctor Who K-9 slippers that I wanted and also a waffle maker and Brendan liked his three gifts that I got him (well I made one of them).  Then last Friday after we had both finished all of our finals (which by the way I got an A on all of them and kept my A's in all of my classes!)  we went on our own date before he went home for the break.

We went on a date to Ingredient and had some spectacular burgers.  I had one with avocado, pepper jack and provolone cheeses, bacon, and mayo on it and it was the best burger I have had in a while.  Brendan got one with bacon, onions, mayo,  guacamole, cheddar and Swiss cheese and his was pretty good too! Then after that we went to the Magic Tree.  It was probably one of the best gifts that we have had in a long time and I was really excited to be able to do so.  I am already missing him now, but it will be okay I know that because I am going to get to go see him on New Year's Eve.  I haven't spent time with people for a while and I am pretty excited to get to do so. 

Anyway, today I worked this morning and then I went to Walmart just so that I could get the last few gifts that I needed to for Christmas.  Sara and I watched Grey's Anatomy and Modern Family tonight.  This weekend I have two different Christmas parties with family to go to so that will be fun but I have to get through two more days of work on Wednesday and Thursday before then.  I'll make it.  I can't wait to go home on Friday though!

Well, honestly this was a rather shitty blog post my apologies.  Here's a quote:

"When you stop doing things for fun you might as well be dead." - Hemingway

November 17, 2014;

I have had a busy couple of days since I last posted nine days ago or so.  Not really anything specific that I have been busy with I just feel like I have been busy.  One of the people I work with is quitting and he is the one who usually opens on the weekends and since he is leaving and I am one of the only ones who was ever trained to open so that is what I get to do on the weekend.  I actually really don't mind it seeing as I used to work 6-2 shifts when I still worked at Hardees so mornings really don't bother me even when I stay up later.

Anyway, it was also supposed to snow this last weekend, but that did not happen at all we had snow flurries both yesterday and today but no accumulation so that's fun it has just been unreasonably cold and I am not appreciating it.  I know I shouldn't be complaining about it already because it is only going to get worse but oh well.  I will survive I guess I just do not like cold weather it is a close second in my least favorite weather only because it is easier to cover up than take off enough layers like in the summer when it is hot as heck!

On Friday Brendan and I went on a date like we usually do.  Since my hours have been cut lately though which sucks he was a sweetheart and paid for it all because he has moneys and I don't.  We went to The Mud Room and painted again which is always really fun.  I got to paint a cute little owl mug which I can not wait to see on Wednesday when we go to pick them up.  He just went crazy with a mug.  Then we went to... wait for it because this is going to sound like a weird date restaurant... Hooters for dinner.  I know it sounds crazy but I have really wanted wings and I wanted to go there and try them and even while that place can be very derogatory against women they still have some spectacular food and I can't deny that.  I was seriously one of the like four women who was there eating, it was kind of strange but again I say the food was really good and its whatever.  It isn't somewhere that I would want to go all the time but it was a nice change from just like sit down in a booth and have a semi-fancier meal.  I am not going to complain about it, it wasn't like we went to a strip club or something.

Anyway this week I only worked tonight and I don't work again until Saturday which is really weird and then it's Thanksgiving Break.  This is insane because after this week we only have one more week of classes and then we have finals! I don't know how this whole semester when so fast! I have a paper due this Friday and I really need to finish the book before I can start on it, maybe I should get on that.  Also today I received my first Love With Food box, I was so excited about it.  Seriously this is one of the most awesome things ever around eight snacks that I get to try every single month and on box equal one meal to someone who is hungry in America.

On that note I will go listen to some music and read some.  Here is a quote: "Maybe you just have live for the small things like being called pretty or someone picking up the pen you dropped or laughing so hard that your stomach hurts.  Maybe that's all that really matters at the end of the day." - Tianna Kavanagh

November 8, 2014;

I am trying to get this month started early.  I know it is already eight days into the month, but I never actually get myself together.  I am going to get it together hopefully maybe this blog won't get it together but I am getting it back together with my life.  I am back on track to lose weight this week again which is a great thing!

I am now actually down 13.4 pounds and I am super excited about that.  I am getting closer and closer to my goal and that is an absolutely awesome feeling! I have made three different healthy recipes this week and two of them have been super awesome and I am glad to keep finding more and more recipes that I really like that are good for me.

Anyway, nothing else really has happened that I know of majorly.  I have been really really busy with school stuff.  I had four tests and an annotated bibliography due this week and all before Thursday which was all really crazy.  What is really awesome though is I already got all of those grades back and none of them were too bad! 

Social Psychology: 86%
Health Psychology: 91%
Developmental Psychology: 89%
Sociology: 90%

I am so pleased by all of these scores.  It is really awesome because I felt so stressed for most of this week.  Now I have to hope that I did well on my annotated bibliography but it is going to be a little while before I learn about it.  All I am still shooting for though is to continue this streak of having A's in all of my classes which I have right now.

Then finally on Friday I got to catch a break.  Brendan and I went out to eat at Ruby Tuesdays and then we just went and got the stuff for food today.  I work tomorrow and I have to take pictures for one of my photography assignments and then I am back to class on Monday.

Anyway, here is a quote: "Confidence is quite. Insecurities are loud." - Anonymous

October 26, 2014;

I figured I needed to have at least one more post on my blog for this month because I know that I am slacking behind.  Actually, I'll be honest... I need to go to bed because I have to get up at six in the morning to sign up for my spring classes, but I just can't make myself go to sleep yet so I figured if I did this then I would be doing something slightly productive (not really) and I wouldn't feel as bad about not going to sleep. 

Anyway, I am just as busy as I always am with work and everything else.  This coming week though my hours got cut and this school week (Monday-Friday) I actually only work one day which is Thursday.  So you know like a normal person should you'd think that I would be taking that time to catch up on everything but NOPE... I decided that I was going to fill every single day with something to do. 

Tomorrow I am hanging out with Sara, I mean I will still be at my house, but still it isn't specifically catching up on things even though I will be working on a little bit of homework at that time.  Tuesday, I am going to see Gone Girl and going out to dinner with Hannah.  Wednesday, Brendan and I have a double pizza date with Brittani and Dakota which is awesome because I am really excited for them to meet, Thursday is work day, then Friday is Halloween! I have an hour long work meeting but then Brendan and I are going home to my house to hand out candy with my family.  I am really excited to go home, he wasn't so sure but I convinced him.  I mean I never get to go home and I always like to on Halloween because I like seeing all the kids dress up even though I never know any of them anymore which makes me feel really old. 

Also, since I asked off first I should be able to get my family Thanksgiving off as well which makes me excited because I didn't get to go last year because I hadn't been there very long and everyone else asked off before me.  That is why this year I made sure that I was the first to ask off so my boss said I will most likely get it! This being said I don't ask off for just Thanksgiving because we already get that off if you are thinking that, I have to ask off for the Saturday after because that is when we have our Thanksgiving dinner with my mom's family. 

Anyway, now that I have wasted a good seven minutes doing this I guess that I need to get off of here and go to bed because I don't have anything else to yap about.

Here is a quote for you and goodnight:

"Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith." - Margaret Shepard

October 18, 2012;

Well I was going to title this the 17th but I realized that it just switched over to midnight the moment that I started it so I guess that won't work.  Anyway... I suck. 

No seriously, don't argue, I suck.  I haven't again posted in almost a month on here and I just don't even know what is going on with me anymore.  I always am thinking, "Oh, I should totally post a blog post, but then I don't."  Seriously though I really just need to get it together because I have no excuse for why I don't post more often.  I mean I do work and go to class and spend time with my boyfriend a lot but I did that at the beginning of this year and I still managed to post a lot more than I do anymore and I am working maybe a couple hours more again but still... not an excuse for why I suck so hard.

The major event for the last two weeks though was totally the concert that I went to.  I really meant to talk about it before almost two weeks later (three days shy - well two now that it is midnight... whatever) Anyway, I went to a The Used concert who played along with Taking Back Sunday and FrnkIero AndThe Cellabration (no that is not a typo, that is seriously how it is spelled, I had to copy and paste to make sure I did it correctly). 

Just so everyone knows this concert was fucking spectacular.  I seriously have been on a Taking Back Sunday binge ever since it was over and I was on one probably for a good month before.  I fall asleep and/or wake up with a Taking Back Sunday song stuck in my head and since the concert have dreamt about going to another one and I don't know, lately they have taken top spot over top of Panic! At The Disco which I didn't think that I ever in my entire life would say because I thought for a fact that Panic! was going to be my favorite forever but they are having to fight hard for that spot with Taking Back Sunday now. 

I went with my friend Hannah, who is something that I really never spoke to much before this year and I am so glad that we are friends now because this girl and I are almost identical.  We like the same music, we have the same taste in almost everything. We both love food, the other understands and doesn't judge when we are judging someone else for anything.  It helps that we have at least one class with each other every single day but still it's awesome.  I am so glad to call her one of my friends.  Anyway we left right after my class on Monday the sixth and went basically straight there.  We were down in the pit area which was nice but also there was a lot of shoving and gargantuan staff member decided he had to stand in front of us for most of The Used's set but still it was a spectacular experience and I would kill to go to another The Used or especially another Taking Back Sunday concert.  Plus, to end the night right we went to Steak N' Shake afterward and who can beat that.

Anyway, I would post pictures with this but they are all on my phone and I don't want to have to e-mail myself tonight and then download and then put them here... sounds like a whole lot of work to me that I don't feel like doing at 12:10 at night, because I am a bum.

This weekend everyone that I talk to basically has gone home.  It is a three day weekend with it being fall break but I have a big kid job so I don't get to go home and the only day that I get free is Monday, but hey at least there is no class! Tomorrow I don't have to work until five though and it's not at my regular store so I decided that I am going to take myself out on a date (since Brendan went home too) and I will just spend some quality time with myself.  I think I am going to Panera and maybe going to treat myself to buying a new CD, movie, shirt, or something tomorrow because dude why not I think that I deserve it when I work so hard the rest of my time...

I really don't know what else there is to talk about I only have really be working and going to class besides that concert.  I have a lot of upcoming stuff to get done for photography class, I finished my half semester class with a 97% which is awesome, I am still holding all my A's so I am proud of myself for all of that.  I guess that since I have nothing better to babble on about then I will give a quote and then probably get myself to bed.

"Wherever you are, be all there." - Jim Elliot

September 22, 2014;

Oh my gosh it has almost been a month since my last post.  I apologize blog, I have been neglecting you with work and school and friends and boyfriend and everything I just don't know what has happened.  I really don't even feel like I have been all that busy I just don't ever really think about typing a blog post anymore there always seems to be something else that I have got to go and do which is why its been almost a month.

So much happens in a month that I don't even know what to talk about so I will just talk about some random things that are going on in my life.

Today was a lovely day, I got up around 8:30 or so and then I rode the exercise bike while I was typing my paper for my leadership class that is due tomorrow because I was a slacker and I have been putting it off.  I made an outline last night and then typed the paper out this morning.  It only had to be a page to a page and a half so I don't feel too bad about putting it off because I think I might be doing more work than some people in that class will have done.  Anyway then I have three classes today and then after that I met my best friend ever Chad to go out to eat.  I haven't seen him for almost three months (I looked back at some older blog posts it will be three months on Wednesday).  It seems ridiculous that I have one of the best friendships with someone who is now almost always seventeen hours away from me, it's not cool!

Anyway we went out to TGI Friday's to eat, where he didn't let me pay as usual which happens always because he is awesome and is just an amazing friend.  Brendan calls him my second boyfriend, not because its anything that goes on between us it is just because we are such good friends and we talk every single day.  Don't think anything worse than that because the name from Brendan is just a joke that kind of has stuck now because he is my best friend and he does treat me like an awesome friend.  Anyway, I LOVE BRENDAN... so don't forget that reading this! :P

Then we wandered around the mall before heading back to the town we met in to part our separate ways and head home about four hours later.  It is always nice to see him because no matter what happens and no matter how far away from me he is I know that I can talk to him about anything that arises in my life and its the same for him so catching up when he is home is always a good thing.

Anyway other things going on in my life:

• I have A's in all of my classes right now! GO ME! I mean none of my classes are too difficult but I did get A's on all the first tests that I had which made me feel really good about myself. 
• I am going to see Taking Back Sunday and The Used two weeks from today with my friend Hannah! 
• I am working lots as usual, full time student working between seventeen and twenty-four hours. 
• I am now down 9.4 pounds. I have 8.6 pounds before I get down to my goal weight, but I am getting there! 

I really don't know what else is going on in my life that is really that exciting, I am sure there is something but since I haven't been doing much with my blog I am really forgetful!

Anyway, quote time and then bed time:

"Friendship isn't about whom you've known the longest. It's about who came and never left your side." - Unknown

August 27, 2014;

So, I know its been a while since I last posted anything on here.  Though that is because I have just been busy.  I started picking up a few more hours at work these last few weeks and also my first week of classes of my sophomore year started on the eighteenth of this month.  So now that I am getting back into the groove of both having class every single day and not being able to sleep until noon and also working between 20 and 25 hours a week it is easier for me to post. 

I have three classes every single day until half way through semester and then my Tuesday and Thursday drops down to only two once my Leadership class is done. Anyway, I also have already become better friends with a couple of people and have spent a lot of time with Brendan which is nice again - he is actually working on some homework right now.

I am loving that I have three different psychology classes because I love both of the teachers that I have and I also love my sociology professor because he is absolutely hilarious.  I even have decided this semester to join Psychology Club this year which I think is going to be good for me to be about more people that are involved in my major as well.  I know a lot of the people that I have in there already as well which is cool.  We even had a barbeque tonight out at one of the psychology professors house and it was really nice to get to know more people that I didn't know already, plus it was awesome to not have to make food, eat Subway or pay for the food that wasn't Subway and it was really good burgers along with chips, homemade salsa, more chips, ice cream and brownies.  I am pretty sure that I went over on calories for the day, oops!

Speaking of calories, I have been working on losing weight since back in July when I started using an app on my phone to track my calories as well as to track my exercise.  Since then I have lost 6.2 pounds and I am actually really really proud of myself.  I have a little under 12 pounds left to go before I reach my goal weight but I already feel much better.  I walk to campus from my house every day and I don't feel quite as out of shape as I usually do which actually feels really awesome.

I even usually only pin food pins on my Pinterest that aren't going to be that bad for me. I made a Baked Chicken Parmesan the other day because Chicken Parm is one of Brendan's favorites and this was a healthier version.  It was really really good and it is definitely one that I am going to try again - and also one that I need to write about on my other blog as well. 

Anyway, I am slowly getting back in the swing of things and I am glad.  I think it is going to be a good semester and hopefully you only hear good things from me from now on!

"Great things are done by a series of small things brought together." - Van Gogh

August 7, 2014;

I don't really have much of anything to talk about that is really exciting.  I really just wanted to post a somewhat sappy message about how amazing of friends I have and how much I love them and don't have any idea what I would do without them.

This all came about yesterday while I was alone and for some reason I just really wasn't in the greatest of moods.  I kept thinking about different things that have happened and for some reason last night they were really getting to me and I was upset of a lot of thing that really shouldn't upset me anymore and I don't think about it much in general because it is ridiculous.

Finally after I got over everything that was bothering and pulled myself together I basically told myself to shut up and realize that while yes things haven't been very fun at times, if I hadn't been through everything that I have been through that I wouldn't be where I was.  I realized that the things that brought me to where I am today is also the reason that I have the spectacular friends that I have. 

So many of these friends that I have now that I am so close to seem to be that I either knew them before times or I knew them while I was going through things that at the time I didn't know were things.  Then after things occurred they were people who either were there for me while I was going through what seemed like some of the hardest things to ever go through.  I also through all of that gained more friends or built stronger and stronger friendships with people who I knew before but never had talked really. 

All I have to say is that everyone and everything in my life that I have now has come to be because of things that I have gone through in the past.  Sometimes you have to handle things that seem like the end of it all only because there are brighter things that are in the future.

Today my quote comes from one of my best friends who told it to me last night when I was talking to him about everything that was going on yesterday.

"It's more fun to see where you're heading rather than remembering all the flat tires you had to change."

July 28, 2014;

I will start by saying that this is going to be a really long post because so much has happened this last weekend because it was definitely a jam packed weekend for me, but it was absolutely amazing.  I will just make this out by days so that it is easier to decipher.

Friday (The day we designated for Brendan's birthday celebration)

I got up pretty early and headed to St. Louis so that I could get there relatively early since I didn't have any idea what we were planning on doing because honestly I didn't know anything about what was going on this weekend because Brendan planned it all out.  When I got to his house he was outside holding flowers, well not just flowers but lilies which are my absolute favorite. Like my mom said when I told her, he knows what I like.  He actually wanted us to go to the mall and go ice skating, mini golfing, and other things. We actually ended up just going out to have lunch at Lester's and then came back and took a nap because I was absolutely exhausted because I worked the night before. I felt kind of bad because I felt like I made the day kind of boring and we didn't do anything that he had planned but Brendan said it was okay.

For dinner we went to Katie's Pizza and Pasta with Brendan's mom and grandma.  Brendan and I decided that we were going to share a 6" pizza and some pasta.  It was the perfect amount of food after eating lunch a little bit late.  After going to eat we went over to Brendan's mom's house because she had cakes and stuff for both of us.  Brendan's cake looked like a mug of beer and then I had a cheesecake, which again is my favorite.  Then also his mom had cake pops for me and there were a few other things for the both of us. After leaving his house we ended up going to a comedy club where John Morgan (and another comedian whose name I has forgotten already) was performing.  It was absolutely hilarious, and I had a lot of fun.  It was late by then so we went to bed after we had gotten home.

Saturday (My actual birthday!)

Woke up around eight or a little bit later and we didn't do much except lay around until about ten and then we went to First Watch for brunch.  Now, I will say that most of the time I am not that excited about eggs.  I enjoy them every once and a while but never and I the one that is going to order an omelet because I just don't like them THAT much.  Well, except for today.  This place had an omelet that had bacon, avocado, and cheese in it and it was spectacular.  It came along with sour cream and a homemade salsa and it was just a beautiful thing! I ended up eating the whole thing and leaving the potatoes that came with it and that is something that I never ever do! Worth it though.

I think we are quite adorable!

After that we went to a place called Lone Elk Park in hope of seeing some bison and elk and deer and things.  It turned out to not be as exciting as we were hoping for and we only saw about five bison and then two elk.  It was quite uneventful.  I did take one picture of an elk with my phone, because oh yeah I forgot to mention... I forgot both of my cameras at home because I am an idiot and don't know how to do things.

Today seriously had to be the hottest days of all the days this weekend because that is how my birthday always it.  It is either ungodly hot or it is raining, there is never an in between of the two.  That is okay though.

We went home after that and spent some time there before we left for the concert.  Gates opened at 4:30 for the concert so we got there around four because I wanted to be able to get relatively close in line and in the pit once we got inside.  I ended up deciding against buying a t-shirt and I was rather proud of myself for that because I really really wanted one, but I knew that all it would be was another band t-shirt and I decided that I didn't need to build up my collection again after I had finally stopped wearing almost all of my other ones.

Brendon Urie (:

Anyway we ended up about three rows of people back from the front of the pit which was really awesome! It was so hot down in the pit though I was consistently sweating through the whole thing but it was totally worth it.  The only annoying thing was the girls that were in front of Brendan and I who only came to see one specific band and were insanely rude.  They didn't even stay for Panic! At The Disco which is kind of ridiculous.  They acted like they were so bored through all of the other bands that were before TwentyOnePilots and that just kind of annoyed me, but it's whatever.  Panic! At The Disco never ceases to amaze me with their show.  I mean I know that this was only the second time that I have ever seen them in concert but I still have to say that they still put on the best show that I have ever seen. I took pictures on Brendan's phone, but I still have to wait for him to send me all of the pictures.

After we left the concert it was about midnight and he hadn't eaten much of anything before going so we went to Taco Bell and then went back home, ate, and showered because we were both all sweaty and gross.  Also, we couldn't shower the next day because we had to get up early.

Sunday (Day we designated as our anniversary celebration - it's actually on the 31st)

So, we got put early and Brendan ate breakfast.  I couldn't do so because I can't eat right after I wake up or else it just makes me sick.  I had a granola bar in my purse that I decided that I would just eat later.  Anyway, we left for the Meramec so that we could spend the day together going zip lining and also going on a cave tour.

Well, that turned out to be a mess.  We could have definitely stayed on one road and gotten more sleep because we could have gotten there faster but my dumb phone decided that it was going to take us out to the middle of no where and I have absolutely no idea why it did that.  We ended up an hour out of our way in the wrong place where it should have only taken like 52 minutes.  It was quite the adventure though even though it stressed me out and it didn't bother Brendan.  Once we got back to where we had service we called the zip lining place and they got us there without any problem from where we were.  We actually weren't WAY out of the way but we were still in the middle of freaking no where and that bothered me.

Anyway, they moved our zip lining time back by thirty minutes.  This was something I said a few weeks ago to Brendan that I wanted to do but I didn't really expect to do it any time soon.  I guess that I was wrong! I was rather nervous about it, but it ended up being one of the most awesome things that I have ever done.  It was cool to be going over the Meramec and looking down it and everything even though I kept turning around in circles but it was really cool.

After that Brendan and I went back to Sullivan and had lunch at Steak 'n Shake and it was probably the worst service that I have ever had almost, at least in a really long time.  It took us forever to get our food which was really annoying because a six person table that ordered after us and everything got their food before we did, but it's whatever we finally got our food and ate before we went back to the Meramec and went on a cave tour.

Now caves are something that actually really kind of fascinate me just with all of the history that is in some of them and also just looking at the naturally formed structures that occur.  It was about an 80 minute tour and after that we just headed home.  We were really worn out so we took a small little nap and then tried to figure out what we wanted for dinner.  I finally suggested that we get take out and just go home and I have to say that was probably the best choice.  Our dinner was really good other than my chicken was a little dry but that's okay.  What I am most sad about was that this morning when I left I forgot my crab ragoon from yesterday which was so good! Then our fortunes were ones that seemed like we should have gotten either that morning or the day before which was funny.

Once we were done with dinner Brendan did a little bit of homework and then we checked to see if some of the books he had would be ones I could use in my classes.  I am able to use one of them which is really awesome.  Then we tried to watch a movie but I kept falling asleep in the middle of it so we decided to just go to sleep at around 9:30.

Monday

I left for home this morning when Brendan left for work.  I am pretty sure that I made it back faster than I should have, but that's all right.  I really haven't done much of anything today besides worked on this long blog post which I had to do in sections because otherwise I got really bored with it as well as go to work for four and a half hours which wasn't too bad because we weren't really all that busy.

I am about to head to bed now because I have to be up again at like 8:30 tomorrow because I have to get to work at 9:30 and I want to be up long enough to eat a little bit of breakfast before doing so.  I guess I get to bed right after finishing this.

To finish it off here's a quote as usual, and this time it is one that I feel like is what just happens a lot of times when I'm with Brendan, but I have to say it really isn't too bad of a thing.

"We were together. I forget the rest." - Walt Whitman

July 22, 2014;

So today I had to wake up to get to work again by 9:30 after I got off of work at 10:30 last night.  I actually wasn't supposed to work until 4:30, but I switched shifts with one of my co-workers because he didn't want to get up that early and I was happy enough to switch because I was going to gain an extra hour of work.  I actually ended up getting another extra hour because my boss decided that she was going to leave because she didn't feel the best so I stayed an hour later and then my co-worker came in a little bit earlier.

After I got off work I came home and showered then Sara and I watched an episode of Grey's Anatomy and then we got our dinner started which was a whole chicken and corn and spinach salad with craisins and cheese. It was amazing, but while that was cooking I talked to my lovely boyfriend on the phone.  Anyway after we got off the phone I had that lovely dinner with Sara and we watched a little bit more TV and then we decided that we were going to go to see a movie.

Buuuuuuut we didn't go to the movie alone, we took our lovely friend Brittany (I hope I spelled her name correctly) with us and we decided to go and see Maleficent finally.  It was actually a really really awesome movie and I am so glad that I finally got to go see it even though we were planning to see it earlier that we got too I am just glad that it stayed in the theaters longer. 

Anyway, now we are back home and watching Grey's Anatomy again.  I work again tomorrow at 3:30-7:30 and then close on Thursday and I absolutely can't wait for Friday! I am so absolutely excited if I didn't say that enough yesterday.

"Sometimes I have to remind myself that I don't have to do what everyone else is doing." - Anonymous

July 21, 2014;

So, I'm back. I mean I really didn't go anywhere on purpose but my computer which I had problems with that I thought we got fixed decided that I was going to completely crash and burn.  I am back though now because I finally got myself a brand new computer!

I have to say though it is going to take a lot of getting used to because it is a completely different system and I am not used to it yet.  Also, I just noticed that these keys are really super loud... that or I just type really loud which I have been told but for now I am blaming it on the keys.

Honestly there has just been so much stuff going on since I last was able to post that I don't even know what to say.  It hasn't been anything super exciting at least if there was I don't remember it so I don't really even know what to type about.  What I will type about is that fact that my twentieth birthday is in five days!!! I can't wait until Friday so that I can go to Saint Louis to spend my birthday weekend with Brendan. 

Speaking of my boyfriend his birthday was this last Saturday so, happy late birthday to him (even though I totally told him that on his birthday so it wasn't late)! Also last Thursday I got to spend time with my best friend Danielle for the day which was nice because we never get to see each other and it will be even less once she goes to school because she is going to be almost three and a half hours away from me instead of the normal one hour distance between me and my home town at the moment.

Besides all that I don't really know what to say.  I will have all sorts of things to say after this weekend though because apparently Brendan has the whole weekend planned out for me along with the Panic! At The Disco concert that he bought tickets for me for back in like April! So that will all be very exciting and I absolutely can't wait, just have to get through four more days of work and then I will be on my way to have an AWESOME weekend.

Now... quote time:

"What happens in a certain place can stain your feelings for that location, just as ink can stain a white sheet." - Lemony Snicket

July 6, 2014;

I just have to say that the 2nd was an absolutely spectacular day.  I guess that if I don't talk about what that day was though that sentence really won't mean anything to anyone who reads this except that it was a good day!

Anyway July 2nd was Warped Tour 2014 for me! I went with Brittani and her boyfriend Dakota.  We actually got off to a rough start because those two woke up late but it wasn't too bad.  We ended up getting there right as the gates opened and we were so far back in the line that we missed the first set of bands because it took us forty-five to fifty minutes to get inside finally.  It was okay though because we only missed bands that we didn't even know.  The first band we went to watch was The Ghost Inside, after that we were headed to go listen to another band and as we were walking by some of the merch tents I glanced over and saw Travis Clark.  That was when I realized that he was signing things for people and there was a line.  I allowed Brittani and Dakota to go on without me and I told them that I would catch up with them afterward because I had to meet Travis.  Honestly I had said before that my only goal for the whole day was to meet him and that I was willing to give up seeing anyone just to do so, seeing as it was the eighth time that I was going to be seeing them in concert.

Travis Clark and me! I think one of my most exciting moments ever in my life!

I started getting really nervous the closer and closer that I got.  Finally when I did make it up to being my turn it was fantastic.  I hugged him and told him how the day before six years earlier had marked both my first Warped and the first time that I had seen We The Kings EVER! He was like what took you so long to come back? I said actually this is my fifth Warped and I have seen you all play seven other times and this is the first time I am actually getting to meet you.  He goes "Wait, like the first time EVER?" I just smiled a little and nodded and said yeah softly.  He was like you totally deserve another hug for that! He told me about how he had to go out to the bus earlier that day and then he came around the corner there was a bunch of people and he couldn't just like turn back around because he had places to be, said it was like a the "wave" with people throwing their hands up and screaming.  So I got his signature, a picture and talked a little with him. Honestly meeting him was the best part of my day, I mean I had a SPECTACULAR time but meeting him was absolutely amazing and I am so glad that I missed seeing Yellowcard to meet him.  He was so laid back and just talked to his fans and that is something that you don't see sometimes anymore.  A lot of the time anymore they are just like signature, picture, NEXT! and that is all that you get out of someone.  It was really awesome to get to talk to someone who I'd say I have kind of idolized and wanted to meet for a total of six years and not felt like I was being pushed to hurry along.

Jordan from The Ready Set and I (I'm starting to get sunburned)

After that I just had to call my mom, I couldn't resist it.  I was shaking slightly from excitement and I told her all about it.  She reminded me to eat and drink (as she always does because I always get so excited at Warped!) and then told me to have a good day.  After that I actually went and got some food - which wasn't worth crap to be quite honest, and I went and found a decent seat for me Brittani and Dakota to watch Cute Is What We Aim For, I texted her about that and then we walked around a little because we had a short period of time before The Ready Set, which we came back for and got in the pit.  This is where you are going to hear the thing I thought I would never say in my life... I skipped We The Kings to watch The Ready Set.  I had my reasons though.  I had never seen The Ready Set and also both Brittani and I had low phone battery so we didn't want to split up and not be able to find each other again because that would have been horrible, so I sacrificed We The Kings for this one time, but don't expect it again.  While watching The Ready Set we kept getting pushed around which was rather annoying, but it wasn't the worst thing ever, I have been in worse.  After that we went and watched a band called Vanna with Dakota and then went back to see Anberlin.  They honestly weren't as good as I was hoping so Brittani and I went to hopefully meet Jordan from TRS but by the time we got there we ended up being way in the back and we had kind of given up.  We found out when This Wild Life was having their signing.  Then though we realized the line for The Ready Set had gone down.  Sadly by the time we got there it was pictures only so we at least got a picture with him, but it was still kind of sad especially for Brittani because he was like her top person to meet almost.

This Wild Life :)

We then went back to where most of the bands we were watching we playing actually, caught the end of The Maine's set and then we moved in closer to the pit once they were done so that we could watch This Wild Life.  I actually hadn't heard of them until earlier this year.  Though even with that being said I hadn't listened to any of their songs until that morning when Brittani played a couple for me.  They actually were really awesome.  We were right up close to the stage for their set and it was a lovely. After that we quickly raced over to meet them! Dakota went to watch another band while Brit and I waited to meet them.  They signed my backpack and took pictures with us.

After meeting them Brittani and I went and stood up by the gates waiting for Dakota because Brittani's phone died right after she told him where we would meet him.  It was getting chilly, especially with the wind blowing while we waited.  Once he got back we headed back out to the car, I finally realized how sunburned I actually was because I'm a dummy, and I handed Dakota my keys since I was going to let him drive home.  We just talked walking back, asked Brittani how her first Warped Tour was and if she enjoyed it.  We stopped for Denny's before getting too far away, though kind of wished we had stopped somewhere else because it wasn't be best of food that we have ever had, but it's alright.  Brittani bought my food rather than giving me gas money which was perfectly fine with me.

I just have to say it was an absolutely AMAZING day and I was glad to spend it with them.  It was only the second time that I had seen them both in person so it was just nice to finally spend time with him. Brittani and I bonded on the way their while Dakota slept and then it was vice versa while we drove home, so I feel like I got to know them both better on this day.

THEN... My amazing boyfriend came to see me on Thursday! (: He actually stayed until today and left when I had to go to work.  We really didn't do all that much the whole time we was here other than Friday the 4th we took a trip with Sara to Columbia for Taco Bell after I got off work.  We didn't even set of fireworks other than smoke bombs but that's okay.  Then Saturday before I went to work he took me to Chili's.  I have to say that I am going to get kinda mushy now.  I would like to say that I have such an amazing boyfriend and I know that sometimes we have some ups and downs but I know that we are good for each other and we see that every single time that we are together.  We don't have to do anything and still I smile and get butterflies whenever I see him smile and me or just look at me, he makes me happier than I expected to be by this time this year and I am so glad to have met him.  I know I have said all of that before, but I really don't care I love him to death.

Now I am finishing up this post that I actually started typing on Thursday but kept getting unbelievably distracted. Now I need to pack some clothes for tomorrow and Tuesday because tomorrow Sara and I are leaving bright and early to go to Lambert's because she has never been there and we are crashing at her parent's house afterward so we don't have to pay for a hotel.  We are leaving in less than nine hours so I really need to go and pack! (:

I has been an amazing last half week and I feel like I couldn't have anything better than I already do.

"Wrinkles merely indicate where smiles have been." - Mark Twain

June 25, 2014;

Well, I know I said that I would be going on a hiatus, but it turns out that after fiddling around with my computer some I believe that I am able to use it.  I haven't had anything else come up on it again and nothing is found when scans have been run so that is an absolute plus.  I am still taking it home tomorrow so that my mom can take a look at it but I think it is fine.  I am at least going to type up the post about yesterday and today, I think that will be alright.

Anyway yesterday was definitely an awesome day after I had fallen asleep at like two in the morning for some reason I ended up waking up at eight.  I wandered around in the house for a minute and sat down on the couch only to realize that I was still unbelievably tired o I went back to be and slept until like 9:45.  Once I finally dragged my happy butt out of bed I folded all of my laundry (amazing right?) and got dressed... because one of my best friends was coming!!!

After folding all my laundry and getting dressed I actually went outside while I was waiting for Chad to get here.  I even encountered a fight between a female cardinal and a squirrel. It was a pretty intense thing and I am pretty sure that the cardinal won because the squirrel took off across the yard after finally getting off the trunk of the tree.  I actually got a few pictures of the squirrel while he was hanging out on the tree trunk trying to escape from the cardinal after they moved out of the top of the tree. 

Chad got here around 11:30 or so (after driving past my house once before realizing where it was, even though I was sitting on the front porch - he claims he didn't see me and couldn't see the tree because of the sign because of a tree) and we didn't plan on heading to lunch until about 12 or 12:15 so until then I just showed him around the not so exciting house we have here.  We also looked at some yearbooks from the years that we graduated high school and talked about some of the people we knew and where other people where before heading out to go get sushi.

Now sushi is something that Chad and I have spoken about many times before but never have been able to go get.  I mean it is difficult to do so when he lives almost eighteen hours away from me and I never get to see him, and the last time that we met was on a Sunday and the place is closed on Sundays.  Anyway I fumbled around with my chopsticks as usually (actually worse than usual) when I was eating salad and I feel like Chad was silently making fun of me but that's fine.  He got the roll named Rainbow and I got the Yummy, though these names mean nothing to anyone who has never seen the menu for this place but that's alright because I just love the names.

When the check came he picked it up which caused me to ask what he was doing and him replying that he was paying for it (which I still don't think that he needed to do even though he said he had money, but I knew better than to argue because I knew that it would be no good at all to even try.)  We talked a little bit more - I stole his water because I had drank all mine and he had Pepsi too so I didn't care.  He made a joke about that was not nice and how our lips have never touched before so I couldn't do that and I just rolled my eyes and drank his water and then we left when we both finished our drinks.  We ended up at Petsmart just because we could, and we looked at all the little reptiles, birds, rodents, and kitties! There was even a turtle, I want a turtle he was so cute!

Anyway, we headed back to Fayette after that, well after having to wait in the car for like ten minutes because stupid people can park worth crap and we couldn't get could because of them so we had to wait around until they left to escape and then we just went back to the house.  We connected my phone to the YouTube on our smart TV so that we could find and play videos the stupid thing wouldn't let us play from the TV itself.  I will admit that I am always amused by the videos that he shows me because absolutely no one else knows them and I wouldn't find them on my own.  Also, he was pleased by some of Hank Green's jokes in four minutes videos that he has which made me happy.

Right before he left he criticized that our syrup says 'pancake' syrup not maple syrup, and how we couldn't use it on waffles because that would be INSANE (whatever Chad!) and then he left after imitating how a squirrel runs when we were outside and I was talking about the fight I'd seen earlier.  We shared a nice hug before he left since who knows how long it will be before we see each other again.  We will talk to each other every single day but physically seeing each other is a completely different story seeing as there was a six month gap almost between this time and last. 

I didn't really do anything after that but I am definitely proud to call him one of my best friends and I hope that never changes.  I really don't know what I would do without him because he is such an amazing friend and the conversations that we have never cease to amaze me and I love him to death for always being here and I will always be here for him too.

Then today I didn't do anything except for sat around the house and watched Netflix until I went to my work meeting at three until four.  Then Sara and I ran to Wal-Mart really quick and then came back to chill around until I went to work again at 6:30 to close.  It was a somewhat stressful night and for some freaking reason it was even hotter than normal tonight and I was about to sweat to death by the time that I got to go home.  I was so glad to take a shower and now I am watching Lovely Molly on Netflix before going to bed.  I hope that it doesn't make it difficult for me to sleep because it is a scary movie and I am watching it alone... I guess we will have to see.

I am back with a quote again today since I am back on my computer!

"The most memorable people in life will be the friends who loved you when you weren't very loveable." - Anonymous

June 23, 2014;

So, I am sad to say I probably will be on a short hiatus from my blog. Not because I want to, but before I have a computer virus. I have no idea how I managed to download it or where it came from but I need to get it fixed and posting from my phone is more difficult than I want to mess with for long posts like I usually do.

Before I go though I woulove to inform anyone that things are going good. I had a great weekend with my boyfriend this last weekend and I can't wait to see him the 25th of July for what we will be celebrating his birthday (19th) my birthday (26th) and our six month anniversary (31st). It will be lovely.

Also tomorrow I am going to eat lunch with my friend Chad who I have mentioned in the blog way back early on. This weekend Isaac is coming home to hang with Sara and I (even though I close at work both Saturday and Sunday). Then a final thing is Vans Warped Tour is a week and a day away! I am so excited to go and get to spend more time with my lovely friend Brittani and possibly her boyfriend.

Anyway these next couple of weeks are going to be great. And again I hope it won't be too long before I can get my computer going again because this long of a post even on my phone was a pain. Though if something important enough happens I'll be sure to post even if I have to suffer the phone! (:

Sadly no quote for the first time in this blog's history... Insane I know. My apologies.

June 13, 2014;

Since the last post I made about deleting Facebook I haven't been on there but maybe once or twice and during that time I only skimmed for about three minutes and then left.  I didn't realize that it really was going to be that easy to get away from Facebook and have absolutely no problem at all.

Also Sara and I finished all of season two of Orange is the New Black.  I won't spoil anything because I have no idea who actually looks at this blog and I don't want to spoil anything for anyone who is watching, but I do have to say that I was very surprised about the end of the season and I really enjoyed it.  Now we are watching season four of Pretty Little Liars. Every time we are both home we are continuing to watch this show.  We have made it through ten episodes in two days.  I guess that means you could say we have been binge watching like crazy.

Today is my last day off and have to work for the next four days at least.  I will have to see what the schedule looks like whenever I work and its up. 

Anyway has been a relaxing day.  Sara and I woke up and we decided that we were going to mow the yard.  Well, when our mower decided that it wasn't going to be a real mower and would stop basically every other pass we gave up.  There wasn't anything even caught in the blades the damn thing just wanted to quit every two minutes so we have one little area in the back mowed and the rest still looks like a disaster.  We have to get someone to mow it hopefully soon.

After that happened we went and got a powerade and diet Coke and then just took a little scenic drive out in the country down a couple of roads.  When we got back we did dishes, we ate lunch which was the end of our leftover balsamic roast beef sandwiches and we watched two or three more episodes of Pretty Little Liars before she had to get ready and so did I.  Her and Donald went to a rehearsal dinner that they are playing at the wedding for tomorrow and I was going to see a movie.

Around 3:00 or a little earlier I ran to Casey's got some peach rings to sneak into the movie theater (because I am an awful person who wanted peach rings and they don't have them and even if they did they would have cost a crap ton of money), then I drove to Moberly to meet Susan and some others to see The Fault In Our Stars at 4:15.  I have to say that that movie was one of the best movies that was originally from a book.  Also the fact that the movie cost way less than most movies to to make and it beat out so many other movies grossing at the box office last weekend is pretty incredible.  I am so amazed by it that if I had the chance I would definitely go and see it again and even spend the money to do so.  I cried for about half of it and had mascara and eyeliner wiped all over my face by the time it was all over but it was 100% worth it and I am so glad that I was able to go.

I got home and ate some mashed potatoes, did the biggest loser work out on the Wii and then took a shower.  I am now just sitting on the floor watching Everybody Loves Raymond and typing up this blog post while I wait for Sara to get home.  I work at 3:30 tomorrow and it will probably end up being a long day because it is supposed to be nice outside and I work for seven hours alone. 

I guess that we will see.  Anyway, I am going to spend the rest of my night just relaxing, watching Netflix and browsing around on Tumblr so I will leave you with my final quote as I usually do.

"Love if you're in love. Cry if you're hurt; smile if you're happy.  Don't grow old; just grow up.  Make mistakes; and learn from them." - Anonymous

June 9, 2014;

This blog post will be all about some of the reasons that I have decided that I am going to delete my Facebook for good.  This is something that I actually never have really thought about until the last couple of days.  Recently my best friend has decided that he is deleting his Facebook and he made a video about the reasons that he was planning on deleting his.  Some of these reasons made me realize that I have to agree with him.

I'll just start this list:

•   It takes up so much of my time.
• He mentioned how every single time he opens an internet browser he goes straight to Facebook, and then he'll think of something to do and then open a browser and will go BACK to Facebook and forget what he was doing.
• I agree with this 100% seriously.  I mean I have my homepage on my internet browser SET to Facebook.  I don't even know why, but I can't open a new browser without feeling the need to look at what is happening even if it is just something that I have already seen or something that is going to make me annoyed, which leads me to reason number two.
• Most posts don't even interest me.
• Way too often I see things that are on my Facebook that I am just like, I DON'T CARE! I really either just get annoyed or just scroll right past. Yeah, sometimes I see things like OH SOMEONE GOT ENGAGED or SOMEONE IS HAVING A BABY! Yeah, those things are really exciting, but I feel like if I am close enough with the people I am going to know those things anyway. 
• Facebook just causes drama sometimes that I really don't enjoy seeing.  I don't care who is in a fight with who or enjoy seeing people calling others bad names just because they are mad at someone who more than likely the next day they are going to be showing love and affection toward.  I am sick of that.
•  I talk to most people outside of Facebook anyway.
• I have family on Facebook, but I learn more things through my mom who I call or text all of the time or from my dad quite often.  I mean yeah there are some things that I can learn from Facebook that I might not learn for a couple days later, but still.
• All of the friends that I have and REALLY care about most of them I talk to outside of Facebook as well. I mean yeah, there are a few people who I don't talk to anywhere else, but I am planning on making it so that I can keep in contact with them outside of Facebook after I delete my account.  
• Privacy settings are getting a little ridiculous. 
• Now this is a subject I don't really know how to discuss, but I do know that some of the things just aren't the same.  You have to go through so many more steps just to hide things from other people, and it really shouldn't be.  Nothing online is secret anymore and I really thing that is not acceptable and Facebook is just getting worse and worse.

So, for now I will still continue to have my Facebook at least for the next month.  The only reason that I am keeping it for that long is because I want to make sure that I have all of the contact information for the people that I want to have.

After it is gone though I will still have other means of contact and other places that I am online.

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E-mail: Ask me on Facebook before it's gone
Phone: Ask me on Facebook before it's gone

This is something that I believe is going to be the best for me both in the short and long run.  I think that in no time I am going to feel like something has been lifted off of my shoulders and it will all just end up being the best choice that I made.  I might miss a few things, but I doubt it.

"Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself." - Anonymous

June 4, 2014;

Last night was the worst nights sleep that I have had in such a long time.  We were having some bad storms and I woke up twice because of that.  The first time was because my stupid phone has alerts that usually don't go off well last night mine decided to go off not for a storm warning or anything but instead a stupid flood warning like seriously? That was at 3:30 took about ten minutes to go back to sleep.  The second time was at 4:30 because there was a crack of lightning so loud that I feel like it could have woken the dead! I almost fell out of my bed it was so loud and scared me.  It woke both Sara and I both up and so we got up and went to the living room and waited until it died down a little while we watched TV.  I also woke up at 5:20 because of a bad dream, but I went back to sleep pretty quickly after that. 

The rest of this day has been pretty useless.  All I really have done today was lay around on the couch and watch Lie To Me, talk to some people, and read on my computer.  I am trying to finish this book that I'm reading by the 10th because I am reading it as a part of a book club for Nerdfighteria.  I actually really am enjoying it even though it is non-fiction and non-fiction is something that hasn't ever interested me even when I was younger.  The only things I liked to read non-fiction were things about animals and sometimes those books or articles bored me. I have never unless required read a non-fiction that was over 200 pages long.  Behind the Beautiful Forevers by Katherine Boo though is something completely different.  It makes me think about how things could be so much worse and you get an insight into other peoples lives and how much they struggle during some situations but also find little joys in some small things that other people would just take for granite like clean water.  It is just an astonishing book and I would actually suggest it to other people, which like I said is something I never would have used to do with a non-fiction book ever in my entire life until right now!

I had a sandwich for lunch and then some spaghetti with olive oil and spices for dinner.  I have talked on the phone with both my boyfriend and my mom.  I also ran to Casey's just so I could buy myself some apple juice because it sounded really really good! Now again I am just laying on the couch watching Lie to Me, Sara will be home soon, and in a little bit I will probably read some more of my book so that I can finish it since I have about 100 pages left still and then I will talk to my boyfriend a little bit on either Skype of the phone again.  I really don't have that exciting of a life.  Though one reason I didn't do anything tonight was because I thought that I might have to go to work for an hour but I ended up not having too which I really don't mind.

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forward." - Søren Kierkegaard

June 2, 2014;

I cannot believe that I haven't wrote on here for half a month.  I really don't even know everything that has happened since then to be 100% honest.  I know that I have seen my boyfriend another time and during that time over Memorial weekend we went to paint at the Mud Room (which I get to go pick up our items this week and I am so excited to see them) and we also went to see the movie Neighbors which was really really funny.

I also know that I have been working basically the maximum hours that I can at work most weeks and I am busy with that most of the time as long as just doing things around the house.  I know that I am missing so many things that have happened and I really hope nothing else is really exciting that I am missing.

Last night Sara and I went to a 10:15 showing of A Million Ways to Die in the West, I have to say that it was actually pretty funny.  I am not surprised from what I saw on the the trailer that I watched earlier that day.  We also grabbed some frozen yogurt which is like the third time that I have had any in the last month and a half which is kind of ridiculous but it is really the truth.

Wow, this is a really lame post. I don't know how many people really do read these but I hope that I will start doing a better job.  It's just that I don't really get on my computer, I check everything on my phone, anymore and so I never really think about posting a blog post.  I will do a little better soon I hope.  The only reason I really thought to type tonight was because I was posting two things on my food blog. 

I don't have anything else to say today besides the fact that I saw Danielle today which was nice.  I will finish tonight out watching the rest of Burlesque and then get some sleep because I work tomorrow at ten in the morning tomorrow. So as usual, I will finish this post out with a quote as usual.

"Have a heart that never hardens, a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts." - Charles Dickens

May 18, 2014;

Warning: This post is going probably turn out being super sappy and all up in the feelings, but I don't even care! Just thought I would warn everyone.

This picture was taken two years ago today.

Two years ago I graduated high school.  I was dead set determined that I knew what I was going to do with my life.  I was going to get married less than a month later, work for two years and then go back to school for myself to become an elementary teacher.

Things on that path have definitely changed.  While some followed through a lot of them did change in ways that two years ago I never would have expected them to. Today I sat in the bleachers of Paris R-II High School again, this time as an onlooker of the graduation of my best friend.  She has been there for me through everything and I don't know what I would do without her.

Danielle is the best friend that I gained and kept through high school.  She has been the one who has seen me through the hard times of everything from divorce to my first test and finals that I experienced my freshman year of college and I have seen her through some things as well.

At this time in my life I have changed my path.  I just finished my freshman year of college.  As planned I started out as an education major to become an elementary teacher only to change my mind along the way through the first semester and realize that I truly wanted to go into psychology and be a counselor.  I met Brendan in the process of this second semester and don't know what I would do without him.  One thing I do know is that I wouldn't have passed Art History with a 99% if it hadn't been for him pushing me to study and us studying together for those tests that set us so high up in the class from the very beginning.

Another thing that I have learned from the past two years is not to be afraid of change.  You can't change things that happen to you and you can't make them go the way you planned all of the time.  It really just doesn't work that way.  You just have to let things go the way that they are set out for you and follow those plans as they come along.  Sometimes things aren't at all the way they seemed to be in the beginning and those change you, but they can change you for the better. In the end it all works out for you and you find new experiences that you never would have known about it your original plans panned out.

So once again, I want to say congratulations to Danielle, the gorgeous best friend that I could ask for and a sister that I never had as well as congratulations to all of the other graduates of 2014, be it pre-schoolers, high schoolers, or college graduates! You all are set out to do great things and if you put your mind to it, it will happen!

"Just because your path is dark now doesn't mean that you won't see light again.  Maybe it just means you need to open a new door or pull that blindfold off your eyes to reveal the brightest light you have ever seen." - Shelby Baclesse (ME!)

May 13, 2014;

Since I last posted in here a few things have happened, including:

• Finishing my freshman year of college
• Moving out of the dorms and in with my best friend
• Sleeping on Sara's couch until her other roommate moved out
• Getting all of my stuff moved in after she left last Sunday
• Having yet to finish putting everything away
• Finished my boyfriend's birthday present - who I would also like to mention is now a little over two hours away from me, and I miss him
• And learning that I got all A's and B's in my classes for the semester

 It has been a little bit crazy the last few days with all of those things happening, but it is nice to finally be living with my best friend, we already made our first dinner as roomies! It is going to be a good summer as well as a good year next year I can already feel it.

Another thing that is happening is that I am getting more hours at work since it is summer. It is nice to be raised back up to the maximum number of hours that I am aloud to have again.  I do wish though I could have more, but because of all the new things I am not allowed which is stupid because I wouldn't even take the insurance offer that they give me since I am still on my step-dad's insurance from his work, but whatever it's fine I guess.

So that is what my summer is going to consist of working, spending time with Sara, seeing Brendan whenever possible even though I don't know how often that will be, and sleeping.  I mean I am sure that there are going to be other exciting things for me to talk about, but right now that is currently what I know is going to happen this summer besides a couple of concerts (Panic! At The Disco and Warped). It's going to be a good summer.

 Today was just a really long day. I didn't really do much besides sleep and work, but I worked for 8.79 hours today and it completely wore me out. I have pains in my legs and feet from being on my feet for a good amount of time.  I will survive though, I only work four hours tomorrow so I guess that counteracts it. Anyway, here is a quote:

"When you have a bad day, a really bad day, try and treat the world better than it treated you." - Patrick Stump

May 5, 2014;

I know it has been too long since I last typed up a blog post.  My apologies but for the last few weeks it seems that all I have been is busy. My group in Psychology finished our experiment and presentation and everything, my group in religion finished our project and presented, I have had papers and work and everything has just been really kind of crazy.

This week is finals week.  This morning I had my statistics final at 7:30 in the morning.  I finished it feeling really really good about.  My feeling was actually right.  At dinner I was looking at my grades and saw that my grade had gone up to an 80%.  I already the night before had calculated that I needed and 86% to get a B with my homework included so I figured that was what I got.  NO! I looked at it just to see and found that I actually ended up with a 97% on my final test that I took this morning! I don't know how I did it because it meant that I missed one question! I was in complete amazement and I am so excited!

After the statistics final though I had my religion one at 10:30 and then my psychology one at 1:30.  Neither of those were that bad. After that I ran to the bank and then to Dollar General.  After that Brendan came over so we could study for Art History.  We actually ended up taking a nap for about an hour and a half because I was exhausted from getting up early and then we studied after that and went to dinner and then came back again to study some more.  We are also getting up a little after 9:30 and studying more before the final at 1:30. 

Then after that I only have one final left and I am done by 12:30 or earlier on Wednesday and I start moving everything into my best friend's house which will soon be my house as well! I cannot wait to do that.  We spend enough time together, it is going to be awesome to live together! We already have planned that we are going to have an ugly sweater party right after I move in and just are going to crank up the air and we both already bought our sweaters.  Also, we plan to have a Christmas one later! It is going to be pretty great!

I am going to try to do way better this month than I did last month. Especially since I will only be worrying about work and not school over the summer. It will be better.

Here is a good quote for the end of the semester:

"Why worry? If you've done the very best you can, worrying won't make it any better." - Walt Disney

April 19, 2014;

I have to say that last week was a rough week up until Thursday.  Then Thursday at about 2:15 made everything better again. That was when I got to pack up a bag that was for until this morning so I could go to Brendan's house and get to meet his family!

Since I had to work the weekend I had to follow Brendan in my own car because he had an interview for a summer job today.  We talked the whole way there and I was alright with driving until we got on 40 and then traffic started getting worse and it made me a little bit nervous.  I guess I really didn't realize it until we got to his house and I got out.  I realized that I really needed a hug and that my fingers were so stiff from gripping my steering wheel so tightly.  I was okay though after I got a hug and flexed my fingers a little.  Then I got to meet the doggies! They seemed quite excited to see people and also the fact of getting to see someone who they didn't know at all, that probably made them even more excited!

Pretty soon after we got back Brendan's mom and grandma got there from work and we headed to dinner.  They took me to a place called Farotto's and I have to say that it was some of the best Italian food that I have ever had in my own.  One way to tell that is because I never ever eat leftovers from a restaurant because I just don't.  That was not the case here, I actually had them for dinner when I got home from work today.  I had a red pesto cheese tortellini, and it was absolutely amazing! Then they also ordered an appetizer sampler and I think that I had some of the best cheesy garlic bread and AMAZING fried cheese sticks.  Mmm...

The rest of that night really just consisted of a little bit of Dexter and sleeping.

Then Friday we had to take Brendan's car to get the oil change, then we went back to his house and ate breakfast.  I had Honey Nut Cheerios with blueberries and strawberries (that Brendan's mom bought me!) and orange juice. After that we just hung around and then went back to get his car and then... wait for it! My amazing boyfriend took me to The Butterfly House!

I have wanted to go to The Butterfly House for about four years and in that period of time I never have been able to do so, because no one would ever take me or had the time or just wouldn't take me because they were dumb. Anyway though, he took me, and I was so excited! We got inside and there were so many different butterflies.  They were literally everywhere! So many of them flying around and some of them never landing at least not in places that I could get pictures, I did get some of them though.  So pretty.

After we left there though we headed over to his dad's house before we headed to his grandparent's and great-grandma's house.  Though while Brendan and his dad were loading up the truck with fire wood and tables and chairs, his little half-brother Gus was telling me about the dogs and house and where to go with a tornado.  He was talking to me and at the same time seemed a little bit shy.  We stopped and grabbed something small at Taco Bell too before we got over there because no one had eaten anything yet.  It's really funny, when Brendan went to meet my dad we had Taco Bell for lunch and then I go and meet his and he buys us Taco Bell too. Probably because one of the only fast food places both of us even enjoy is that, so it makes a good amount of sense, but still.

Anyway, after that and getting over to his grandparents and great-grandma's house is when I started meeting everyone in his family.  I have to say that they all made me feel right at home and that I was so glad to be able to meet them all.  Of course I was slightly nervous to begin with, but definitely I was able to just talk to people about both myself and just in general and it made it even more enjoyable because I wasn't attached at the hip with Brendan and I was getting along great with his family (or at least it felt like I was, so I really am hoping that they liked me too!) I just think that it was amazing how welcome they all made me feel.

In this time I almost won their family tradition game.  It ended up being me against Brendan's step-mom Kelly.  I am not sure how he would have felt about it if I had won, but I didn't.   Anyway, I just felt like I was at home and they made me feel comfortable and not at all awkward around them which was really nice. 

We headed back to his other grandma's house after that and stayed up a little while before going to bed because I had to get up at seven this morning to get everything picked back up and head back to Fayette because I had to work at 11 this morning which was annoying.  We were really busy until after Corey left and then we slowed down until Sean got there and then we picked back up for like an hour and then it died off again and I left at like 5:22. 

After I got off work I actually went on an almost two mile walk around town, then started laundry, and showered and then had dinner.  I am trying to do better about eating more healthy and also attempting to eat three meals a day and exercise more.  I plan to do a better job of that this summer for sure, I want to look better and even more so feel better when it comes to things so I think that I finally am determined to do a better job of taking care of myself.

Right now I am talking to Brendan before I go to bed because I have to be at work by 8:15 tomorrow morning until 1:30, then I am going home for the night probably. I may be back tomorrow night I just haven't decided yet. I guess that we will see, I need to get to bed, tomorrow is going to be another long day that is definitely for sure.  I have just had a busy busy weekend and next week is going to be really busy too! School is over pretty soon, that's crazy to think about.

"I am not an adventurer by choice but by fate." - Vincent van Gogh

April 13, 2014;

Honestly there has been so much going on these past few weeks I don't even know what to talk about.  I know a lot of things that have happened, but honestly I have no idea what day they were on so I will just talk about them I guess because if I try to figure out when they actually happened I would be up until like one in the morning and I can't handle that tonight.

I believe it was the day after Brendan and I went to Steak and Shake we decided that we were going to go to Columbia again because we both wanted sushi.  I didn't want to go originally because I didn't want to think about spending money, and so Brendan decided that he wanted to go bad enough that he paid for it.  We both decided to try rolls that we hadn't tried before, I didn't like mine as much as the other two that I have tried and he didn't like his as much either as the first time, but we liked them enough that we ate them and were happy about it. 

Another thing that happened was the All Time Low concert.  I hate sadly to say that I didn't enjoy myself here.  It wasn't that All Time Low themselves were bad by any means because they were GREAT... when I could hear them.  This crowd was the most disrespectful crowd that I had ever seen before in my life.  Seriously, never before have I been in a crowd of people who are so loud that you can't even hear what is being said or sang.  I also haven't ever been to a concert where someone is flashing the stage because they are so drunk.  I am sorry, but I don't think that these things are respectful to the people around you or the bands themselves.  The other two bands were also pretty crappy so that wasn't the best thing ever. Oh well though, I just kind of wish that I hadn't spent my money on it, but it happened and it was an experience I guess that is all that I can say. 

Speaking off concerts... Guess who is going to see Panic! At The Disco for a second time this year.  I was scared to never get to see them in my life and now I am getting to see them for a second time in a matter of seven months.  Not only that I get to see them ON MY BIRTHDAY! I have to say that I have the best boyfriend in the world.  Not only did he buy me those tickets, but he also bought me the tickets to the pit area of the amphitheater which are the most expensive tickets.  I have to say that he is pretty great.

Also, I had to run home for something on Friday night so Brendan went with me and he got to meet my step sister and nephews and my step-grandma.  So he just keep meeting more and more family all the time.

I am sure there are other things that I have done in the last like ten days, but I really don't have a clue what they are.  I do know that I am following Brendan home to his house on Thursday because I am going to get to meet some family.  Actually going to get to meet a lot of family Friday.  I am really excited to finally meet some.  Like I said he has met plenty of mine, maybe not all under best circumstances, but he still has met them. It is my turn! (:

"From the moment we started talking I knew I wanted you around." - Anonymous

April 4, 2014;

It has been a little over a week since I last posted.  Last week was a bad week, and I just don't know what I was doing for most of the time.  This last one up until today has been much better though and I am glad to say that I don't know what I would do without the people who are in my life.

Really the only thing that has been all that exciting is the fact that going on this week was that I fell off the bed and scraped the heck out of my back and I bruised my ear.  It was rather interesting.  I am still rather uncertain about how you can manage to bruise an ear but I did it.

Tonight, Brendan and I went to Steak & Shake for dinner.  We have spent basically the last almost forty-eight hours together and I think that made me a little bit testy with him.  I wasn't being very nice and for some reason everything was getting on my nerves.  So after we left, I apologized and got a little better. I'd changed my mind instead of having a shake I wanted to have frozen yogurt from Orange Leaf... so okay that was going to happen.  Well, we got over there and we saw so many people were there that for some weird reason, I started having some amount of a panic attack.  We didn't even go in, but for some reason it freaked me out to even think about being in that building with all those people.

Instead we went to Wal-Mart and got a few things that we needed and I decided that buying Ben & Jerry's That's My Jam - Core ice cream was a better choice... I decided that it definitely was because since we bought spoons too, the two of us ate basically all of it on the way home (more of it I ate because I really just wanted it) and I will say it is some of my favorite ice cream that I have in a long time.

We also had the terrifying experience of having what they believed was a gunman on campus last night.  It ended up that the phone call that came into the police office was a hoax but it was still scary.  Brendan and I had gone to Sara's concert that night and were hanging out at her house for a while.  Well, when we went back we were headed up the steps to go inside and Sara calls me and tells me that I need to get inside and lock doors because MaryRose was alerted about it and they had the con on lock down. It was rather ridiculous because while almost every one found out at 10:30, we didn't get an alert from the school until 11, and then ended up not getting an all clear until 1 in the morning.  Brendan and I were already all asleep by that time it was just easier than being awake worrying, plus I fell asleep watching Dexter.

Speaking of Dexter we are halfway through the second to last season.  I am really excited to finish it, but I am going to be somewhat sad because it was what made Brendan and I bond in the beginning, we will have to get into another show after this one is done.

Tonight though I am letting myself have a little bit of alone time.  I have to work at 8:15 in the morning because it is going to be really busy tomorrow and that means I have all of Sunday off.  I figured that it would be a great time now to get a blog post done, and I am also watching some of Chad's videos because I haven't watched very many for the last two months.  I figured I should get back into watching them again because I really do enjoy watching them.  They make me laugh, he's a bit of a mess, and I am so glad that I can call him one of my best friends still!

Anyway, nothing else major other than Sunday is going to be awesome because ALL TIME LOW! I am really excited to be able to see them again.  It will be so much fun! Anyway, quote time then I have three more minutes of this video of Chad's and then I'll be heading to bed.

"Sometimes you meet someone and it's so clear that the two of you, on some level, belong together.  As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different.  You just work whether you understand each other or you're in love or you're partners in crime.  You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don't know if it makes me believe in fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something." - Anonymous.

March 26, 2014;

Nothing really that exciting is changing in my life currently.  I am still balancing everything that has to do with school and work along with friends and family. 

Family has been one of the biggest things in the recent past.  We lost a family member earlier this week and even though I haven't been home I know it has been hard on me alone so I can't even imagine what it has been like on everyone else.  It was something that we were expecting, but even when you are expecting it you never really know exactly how things will feel until they actually happen.  So, that's been a big thing this week for me.

In my last post on the 22nd I said I couldn't remember what I did the Wednesday that I was off... which makes me feel like a huge idiot! I went to a We The Kings concert with Sara and Danielle.  I have no idea how I forgot to talk about that... Concerts are something that I don't usually forget about and this one was actually a really good one so I feel kind of ridiculous that I forgot about it.  It was We The Kings with This Century and Crash The Party as the front people. It was the sixth time that I got to see them play in concert, still no Travis Clark meeting, I told Sara we need to basically stalk them at Warped Tour! Anyway, that's what my Wednesday was, still can't believe that I forgot all about that.

The only other real thing that I have to say right now is that I have given up on my 365 project.  I was doing well, but have gotten so far behind on uploading and have forgotten so many days over the past over two months that I in no way will be able to catch up again.  I don't know what happened on all the days and I don't appreciate some of the photos as much as I want to.  This being said I plan to upload the ones that I do still love from all of them to my Flickr and Facebook photography page, but just won't have my long descriptions.  It helped me get back into photography again so I have to say that it did what I was intending for it to do.  It has helped me fall in love with something I love doing again.

“You need coffee shops and sunsets and roadtrips. Airplanes and passports and new songs and old songs, but people more than anything else. You will need other people and you will need to be that other person to someone else. A living, breathing, screaming invitation to believe better things.” – Jamie Tworkowski

March 22, 2014;

I think that I have done an even worse job this month in keeping up on my posts than I did last month.  Oh well though it has just been a really busy one.

First thing I have to say is that lately the weather has been AMAZING! I absolutely love that it is so nice outside most of the time that I usually don't feel like I have to wear a sweatshirt and especially not a jacket.  Though there was one weird day that we got snow and then the next day it was all basically gone which was nice.

There has been a lot since I last posted a blog nine days or so ago.  Last Tuesday I was off work and so right after Brendan and I got out of Art History he got some lunch and we decided to head to Columbia to go to The Devil's Ice Box... of course the actually Devil's Ice Box is closed until April 13, which I forgot to check because of bat hibernation and the fact that they don't want to disturb them.  I completely understand that though so it wasn't that big of a deal.  I actually really just enjoyed doing something else that wasn't watching a movie or just going out to eat together it was nice.   After that we wandered around the mall a little bit just to kill some time, and then we went to The Geisha Sushi bar.  Now, I have been here before and I really like it, but Brendan had never been, and he also hadn't ever had sushi before.  I ended up with the Tiger Shrimp roll and he got the Dragon roll.  They were both really good, and he actually enjoyed it, and said that he would come back again which makes me really really excited! Never before has anyone actually liked sushi really and it makes me really happy that he does because it means that I'll actually get to eat it sometimes even if it isn't all that often.

 After Tuesday I was off Wednesday too, but I don't remember at all what I did... That's bad. Oh well.

Then I worked both Thursday and Friday (which even though it is Saturday I am saying it is Friday still because I haven't gone to sleep yet).  Currently Brendan is sleeping, I couldn't fall asleep yet because I just wasn't tired so I figured that I should try to do something a little bit productive so I decided to write my blog since he handed me his computer to use.

We are getting up around 7:30 in the morning and he is going to go home with me tomorrow.  Now, he has already met my mom, not really talked to her but he has met her.  So, now it is time that he gets to meet my step-dad and then Sunday he also gets to meet my dad.  I hope that it all works out just fine, I don't forsee them not liking him or anything.  I guess that we will have to see though!

Anyway, I think that I will try to get to sleep again now, because I am the one who has to drive in the morning.  Goodnight!

"I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up my friend." - Augustus Waters, The Fault In Our Stars by John Green