So far today, I have woken up at ten and then laid in bed for thirty minutes, sounds fine. Then I read and ate some lunch, nothing major. Then I have to give a big thank you to Chad for bringing me my mom's camera back because I so dumbly left it in the car when we went out - surprise surprise! I'm so forgetful. I also got two for my books that I need for classes this coming semester which starts in eleven days - where did break go? I also received the first car insurance bill since Cal and I finally had our policy split at the end of the year, only to see it jump almost forty dollars a month.
Anyway, right now I am realizing that you don't really realize how much you care about something/someone until you realize that there is a good amount of time before you are able to see that thing/person again. You would have thought that I would have gotten this kind of feeling when I left home for the first time wouldn't you? I didn't. It didn't even happen after I had moved back home after the split and then left again for college. I mean I guess it was just because I was only going to be an hour away, that's a days trip, no big deal I can go home whenever I want - which I do! I don't know today though it's hit me that there are things that I am not going to see for months and before about a week ago it wasn't bothering me because there had been that distance and I hadn't really noticed it. Now though, after that distance was closed for a short period of time and I know that it's once again approaching I'm kind of bothered by it again. It's not like I'm going to have a major freak out over it or anything it's just there and I'm like "MAN!" I guess that just makes me realize that I do care as much as I say I do. You can speak it to yourself and everyone else about missing those things and people as much as you want, but when you finally feel it inside of you it is really just a realization that you aren't just making it up.
Also, on a completely different note... WHY IS CAR INSURANCE SO EXPENSIVE!? :( I just paid mine and I also remembered that in four days, I also get to pay my monthly payment to the college! Ugh, I just don't understand why everything has to be so expensive. That's what happens when you grow up and start paying for everything yourself. I have to say that I am glad that I acquired a skill to be able to save money better than a lot of people that I know.
Really though, on that same note. It is insane how I hate to mention the amount of money that I have when people are saying that they don't have any money. I honestly feel most of the time that I don't have money even when I know I have some in an account somewhere, but that is money that I use to pay for school, and insurance, and the internet on the phone bill which my mother kindly only makes me pay that much on. I also am currently paying back my mom and step-dad for paying to get something on my car fixed and also helping pay them back for my wisdom teeth. So yeah, physically I may have money but I don't spend in on myself as often as most people that I know because I am working to pay off things that I have. A lot of people I know when they hear I have money they are like, "Oh, why don't you go do stuff more often?" Can't got stuff to pay off, sorry! I don't know, it's just is crazy the amount of money people sometimes spend when they don't really have it and then complain that they don't have money for things they need because they spent the money they had on stuff they didn't. I'm not saying that this is everyone, because I know for a fact that it isn't and I know a lot of people who are completely responsible, but there are just some people out there who are impulse buyers and I don't think that they really think before they buy things. That's just not me though.
Just some of my thoughts today though. I don't know, I'm done ranting for the day. If I made anyone mad, sorry. I'll leave you a nice little quote at the end of this and a lovely picture of the magic tree!
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway." - Eleanor Roosevelt
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