January 1, 2014;

It is the beginning of a new year and like everyone else around me I wonder what it is going to be like.

Am I going to meet new people? Am I going to make friends? Am I going to lose current friends? Am I going to finish my first year of college with flying colors?  Will I be granted the acceptance to live off campus this coming fall? Will I write an entry for every day in this blog - that is my plan, even if it isn't posted daily I plan to write and then post later? Will I finish my 365 project on May 27th with full excitement like I started it? Will I go on a date, or two, or ten? Will those said possible dates be with the same person or different people?  Will I travel alone? Will I travel with friends? Will I visit someone who is out of state? Will I fall in love again?

All of these questions are good ones.  At the beginning of the year I know what I hope for, but that doesn't mean that my mind won't change as the year continues.  Things are going to happen whether that's what I am hoping for or not based on my choices.  I am not a person who makes New Years resolutions, because I don't want the be the person on December 31st who is mad at myself because I didn't lose those five pounds that at the beginning of the year I believed I need to so desperately lose or the person that attempts to finish everything on my list of resolutions the last week of the year and completely wear myself out and forget about the more important things that are in my life.  That is just not the kind of person that I am.

For me, I just want to be happy this year. 

I want this year to be an amazing one.  I want to let my heart decide on what to do, let my thoughts roam free so I can be creative.  I want to find myself excited about basically everything that I do and feel the happiness that I know rages deep inside of me even though sometimes it is hidden by selflessness or fear.  Lastly I want to make a difference this year.

Now some of you may call those things that I listed off to be resolutions.  If you really want to do so, feel free I'm not going to stop you.  For me though, I just see them as guidelines - possibilities on paths that I choose to take in my everyday decisions.

So maybe I do have one New Years Resolution:

I vow to make 2014 a damn good year for myself!