June 4, 2015;

Today my heart is full. 

That's a weird way to start a blog post I know, but everything inside of me today has been good and happy.  I woke up this morning after getting very little sleep and then being woken by loud thunder and not being able to fall back asleep.  Sounds like a FANTASTIC way to start out your day right, yeah not really. 

Besides that rough start I decided to put the book I was currently reading on hold because last Sunday I got my copy of If You Feel Too Much by Jamie Tworkowski.  Now if you have no idea who that is or what that book is then hold on and I'll explain.  Jamie is the founder of the organization To Write Love On Her Arms which represents this:

To Write Love On Her Arms is a non profit movement dedicated to spreading hope and finding help for those suffering with depression, addiction, self-injury, suicide, eating disorders, anxiety, and other mental health issues. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and invest directly into treatment and recovery.

This organization has been with my for almost seven years now.  I bought my first shirt from them at Warped Tour 2008 when I was thirteen years old.  Since then I have learned the message, I have taken part in writing my own Fears vs Dreams, my reasons for why I can't be replaced, and why no one else can play my part. I have grown to love this organization like no other organization I have found.  Their values and beliefs speak true to mine, as a hopeful future counselor.

Now back to the book.  It's a small book, only 182 pages including Author's Note and About The Author, but even being that small normally I have to stop and put it down to do other things and would take at least two days to finish it.  No, not this one.  I finished If You Feel Too Much in less than twelve hours.  It would have been less time but I worked out and made lunch and did dishes and other stuff around the apartment. 

This book filled me with a joy and passion that I have felt before but not recently.  Recently there have been times when I haven't even been sure if I should be going into counseling, if that is my true calling.  This book pulled me back on track and made me realize that helping other people is what I want to do.  It made me remember why I wanted to be a counselor in the first place. 

Another thing it made me do?  It made me look into TWLOHA's internship.  Now, I don't have any money and it is unpaid so that was my big issue.  So, I have started a GoFundMe campaign and I hope to be able to raise the money that I need to raise for this dream and journey.  I will not be even applying until the internship for the summer 2017 has opened so I have time to raise this money.  Please if anyone can help even a donation of $5 or even $1 would be amazing and I would love everyone forever for it. 

Here is the link the the campaign: Click here to donate

Thank you very much for any support I have out there.